Putting the B Back in LGBTQ: Why I'm Not Part of the Community

Life is full of contradictions, most people cannot fathom the idea that they are walking around in a country full of asterisks. America, land where all men see created equal, which is still coming to fruition, and barely looks the same way it had when the founding fathers penned it down. Granted, the world is larger than America,mbut is my home away from home, and I feel as though I've never been a man with a country, with a people. 

  You see, I'm part of a very particular group, or I'm supposed to be, seeing as everyone stems to be classified these days rather than have an individual identity. I'm "part" of the LGBTQ community. I'm the third letter in, the often forgotten letter of the whole shebang. I'm bisexual, male, and well, at times, I feel androgynous, but often don't have the ability to express myself as such. Truthfully, I'm happy as a male, not that it's even that often different from female, which has always been one of the major flaws in my "acception" into the gay community. I'm bisexual, so unless I'm dating the same sex, or announcing it openly to a world full of strangers (ironically I'm having to do so now, but only to make my point) that quite honestly don't need to know what I do in my bedroom. 

   You see, I come off rather straight, and being scruffy and overweight, I tend to be thrown into what may be considered a "bear" (sic) subgroup of the LGBTQ community. The irony is,mi don't see myself as a bear, because it's really my overweight "real" body style that would make me so, but you know what? Learning from how that culture is, it seems to be the most accepting of the entire gay community. I say this becaue every other gay and lesbian person I've ever encountered with extreme exceptions has always wanted me to fit into their sphere, rather than taking me as just another bubble in the whole LGBT ecosystem. 

   In this post,mi probably going to say things ten elitist LGBT community isn't going to enjoy, and quite frankly, I don't give a flying fuck what they think. Everything I'm going to write here is a part of what makes me essentially me. Firstly, I'm not a liberal, but fret not, I don't label myself a conservative either. I'm a hardline a Libertarian, so I lean center right on many economical issues, and certain social issues, and lean hard left on others, and mostly centrist on anything you talk to me about. I'm moderate,mbut very, very passionate in my moderation. This gets me in heat when I think that the likes of Hillary Clinton are a travesty for even being seen as a fair nominatin for the presidency. Granted, I'm not a fan of the Republicans either, but liberal policies have always made me cringe,becaue most are based in a fantasy land, especially when it comes to economics. Ironically, unless your pe a socialist or communist afficianados, if the Republican Party would stop dictating moral ambiguities that no longer are needed in a modern world, and stopped with religious gestation brewing underneath every single policy tye have, perhaps the youth would find them more relatable. 

    Politics seems to be the whole consensus of your sexual identiy....I'm sorry to say this, but isn't who I sleep with not but a mere part of me, not the obsession of all I am, and all I do! The imbeciles at GLADD have made me think twice about what a bisexual's priorities should be...and guess what? They should be the same as everyone else: get a job, get married, pay taxes, and die, becaue quite frankly, it's the only duties I have to fulfill if I so choose....with the exception of dying of course, although it could cryogenically freeze myself.

  Besides, Bis are the least cared about in the LGBTQ community. Sure they give you  Bi-Pride day, and then they try to make it seem as though bisexuals don't have nearly as hard a time with discovering themselves, or dealing with the consequences of being bi. Some within the community will even say bisexuality isn't a real thing. So already I feel as a bisexual male, I'm a third wheel in what is supposed to be my own movement. 

   I know I was discussing politics, but that's not the focus of this actual post. Although I must say that when I read people were hating on Caitlin Jenner because she was still a Republican...as though a change in gentitallia is a brain change as well. Now, I'm personally not a fan of Caitlyn Jenner, I'm not sure that she is the sort of person I'd care to meet, but I think she has made this more about publicity in many ways, and that is simply stupidity regardless of her personal political and/or religious views. I'm sure many people who are transgendered and gay are conservative, and liberals can find that self-defeating,mbut those are usually people who see conservatives as monsters, rather than people, and that viewpoints don't necessary mean the same as sexuality. 

   Them point I'm making with Caitlyn Jenner is that if she is transfer ended, and feels better as a woman than a man, is she still part of the LGBTQ community? Yes, and no. She may not be for the movement, which quite frankly is losing momentum in the nation as more for the sideshow aspects than the actual legislation and litigation roles it played. This is actually a good thing thoug, that means the United Stwtes has become so welcoming and opening in most parts of the country for gays, that we can now focus on major issues. At home and abroad with transgendered people. The second most undermined part of the LGBTQ community. It's like society gets to a point of acceptance on one issue, then immediately gets primordial on all other issues, as though progress was never truly made.

    The trans community is the most affected community in America today. They are attacked more rapidly, have higher murder/suicide rates than any other part of the LGBTQ, and have almost been lumped into their own group, rather than united with the rest of the community. I'm sick of politics being a part of my sexuality, and having others dictate their own hatred onto me, and I'm talking about those in the community supposedly trying to help me! I don't consider myself part of the LGBTQ community, I'm not an activist for gay rights, but I do care about the safety of the transgendered community, and I urge them to fight back. Sometimes people respect a fist to their jaw more than a piece of legislation. 

   I'm queer, and I'm an outlier to my own cause. Does that make me any less queer? Does that make my sex any less bisexual in nature? I don't have to agree with everything you do to still support the same fight, it's not nazism, it's sexual identiy...get over yourselves, and press on past all the bureaucracy, because in-the-end, neither party, nor philosophy gave a damn about your rights until well after the 90s, and quite frankly, all sides equally suck on the issue, but don't be self-hating douchebwgs within the community: you are diverse and unique as any other group, stop trying to think you're all on one team, and find no hint of irony in knowing that even those little diversities are what makes the LGBTQ community ever stronger! Just do me a favor please: remember that there is still a b in LGBTQ.